I felt very depressed yesterday, and that made me feel "off colour" physically. If you asked me why I felt off colour all I could say was "assorted aches". No ache was particularly significant, and all were far from painful, but together they added up to not much, but enough to not like.

  It was almost midday before I did the closest to some vague plan of maybe going to Aldi. I had even imagined I might go to Aldi and to Poundstretcher, but all I managed was to go to Tesco where I spent a lot of money, and bought at least one very inappropriate thing. That "bad" thing was a packet of sandwiches. My original idea was to get just one pack of sandwiches, and to buy what I thought was one of the safe sandwiches.

  Unfortunately I was suckered in by seeing some yellow "price reduced" stickers on some sandwiches. To make maters worse they had fillings I had never seen before. One was a chicken, bacon and cheese filling. It was nice, but not wonderful. It said it had 5gm of sugar. That seemed a bit high, and I didn't dare look to see if that was per pack, or per sandwich (or even per 100gm of sandwich).

  The other pack of sandwiches was a "Greek Inspired" chicken with Feta cheese. It was also notable for having cucumber in it. For the last two years I have found cucumber to taste really nasty. That was since my taste recovered after being attacked by Covid 2 years ago. Maybe it is one example of "Long Covid". However there was a hint that even that my be getting better now. That cucumber was not nasty, although I haven't recovered to the point of it tasting OK. It was still on the verge of unpleasant. What was more unpleasant was that the sugar content of these sandwiches was double that of the other sandwiches.

  other stuff bought in Tesco includes a couple of bird feeders. They didn't have the rather elegant one I saw in there a week or two ago, but the two I did buy seemed to be a superior design to the ones I had bought in Poundstretcher. The superior aspect is that they are filled from the bottom. Basically that means the bottom doesn't end up full of crap. Rather different to birdfeeders was two bottles of Whisky. I had already put my usual favourite in the shopping basket, Tesco Special Reserve, when I noticed that the Clubcard price discount on the one litre bottles of Haig made them cheaper than the 70cl bottles.

  I ate the two packs of sandwiches straight after getting home, and then I resumed "lazy mode" and had no aspiration or inspirations to do anything more than relax and read for almost the rest of the day. I think I avoided any more food after those two packs of sandwiches for lunch until dinner time. It was actually a slightly late dinner at about 6.30pm instead of 6pm. It was a couple of fishcakes with tinned garden peas. A little later I had a dessert of three Satsumas.

  I was in no particular rush to get to bed last night. If anything I was thinking I ought to train myself to stay up a bit later - it could be useful if I resume going to gigs as the weather improves. It was probably a little bit after 11pm when I got to sleep. I think I had a mix of good and bad sleep. I sometimes felt uncomfortable. That was mostly my chest playing up. At one time I felt too hot under the duvet, and when back to sleep mostly uncovered. I woke up an hour or so later feeling cold.

  At that point I turned the heater up full, and went back to sleep with the duvet over me. I don't think I slept long before I woke up long enough to push the duvet slightly aside. It feels like I was sleeping much better with the heater up, and in the last few hours of the night. I woke up at about 6.50am, and decided I would just lay there for 10 minutes before getting up. At 8.15am I woke up again, and then I got up.

  After those two packs of sandwiches, one with seemingly a high sugar content, and the other with a very high sugar content, plus the three small oranges for dessert last night, I was expecting my blood glucose to have gone through the roof. I was relieved that it had only gone up to 8.5mmol/l. That raised my running average for the month a tiny bit, but it is still at a record low. Hopefully my eating will be a bit more careful today.

  Today could be a good day, or maybe it will just be a better day. The idea of the sun coming out is exciting, but it will be depressing if, as I pessimistically expect, the time for it coming out just gets later and later in each forecast revision, until if it was coming out it would be after sunset - which is impossible ! On the plus side I should be seeing Angela for a lunchtime drink. That is always reason to feel good and happy, but once it is over I often feel sad again.

  There is a truly microscopic chance I could go out tonight. Tonight is the MTP (MT Pockets) jam night at the Iron Horse in Sidcup, and it starts as early as 7.45pm. The pub is right by Sidcup station, and it takes less than 40 minutes to get there from Catford Bridge. I am not sure if it started today, or starts tomorrow, but face masks are no longer mandatory on National Rail services. I believe that face masks are still mandatory on services run by Transport For London - so I still can't go on buses, tubes, trams, the London Overground, and the Docklands Light Railway.