09:27 BST

  After a few hours of sunny spells, the rest of yesterday was rather dull, or even very dull at times. The forecasts were very unsure about how the day would go, and seemed to throw in some random times for showers. None got it quite right. The first rain fell at about half past midnight, and continued on and off for several hours. There was more rain, which was sometimes moderately heavy, in the early evening. The forecast high was 15° C, but it seemed to feel colder than that.

  

  There have been some quite bright spells in the last few hours, but now it seems the weather has caught up with the forecast - except the forecast seems to be no more than guesswork. The current prediction is that the clouds will become very dark at 2pm, but it will then lighten up a bit before heavy rain falls at 4pm, and lighter rain for the next couple of hours. The BBC weather forecast seems to be falling in line with this, but earlier on they were predicting thundery showers for this afternoon ! Both seem to agree that the temperature should reach 15° C. Tomorrow may start nice and bright with nice sunny spells, but by midday, when I want to go to the pub to meet Angela, it will start to rain, and the rest of the day will be dark and miserable.

   Yesterday was a horrible and depressing day. The highlight of the day was going shopping in Aldi. I sort of enjoyed that, but once that was done, and the sky started getting greyer, I lost interest in anything. I could think of things I could do, but I just could not raise the enthusiasm to do anything at all beyond reading. Even that was not that good because I kept dozing off after reading a few pages.

  I thought I had had a reasonable sleep the night before, but the way I kept wanting to doze off suggests otherwise. It was only when preparing my dinner that I felt normal. Even lunch failed to excite me. I guess that was strange because I was eating forbidden fruit either because I couldn't be bothered to care about it, or to try and experience something nice. The "forbidden fruit" was actually three small packets of crinkle cut crisps that I used to scoop up all the "spreadable" cheese in a little tub of "strong cheddar spreadable cheese". It was nice, but maybe just too transient to add anything meaningful to a very boring, and depressing day.

  At 2pm I poured my first whisky, and that gave a small thrill. I sipped it slowly, and poured another two at hourly intervals. Maybe it was a good thing that after the third large whiskey the bottle was empty. If I was in a real destructive mood I could have had more from many of my assorted bottles of whisky and whiskey. I decided that was enough....actually, by then I was fancying some of the strong beers I have rather more whisky, but I didn't want to mix the two. Besides which, I can't touch those beers because that are for our beer tasting sessions.

  Maybe eating the crisps and cream cheese had left some guilt behind, and I didn't eat any more until dinner time. I started my dinner with flame grilled chicken chunks of mixed salad leaves, but I am getting bored with that recipe now, and it just didn't feel satisfying. I think what I wanted on such a cool and dreary day was something hot, and I solved that with two cans of soup - both selected for their low sugar content. One can was pea and ham, and the other was bacon and lentil.

  I found a few things on TV last night, and the last thing I watched was a sort of compilation edition of Have I Got New For You from 2020 on Dave. It was good, but a bit of a mess. It finished at 10pm, and I went straight to bed. After all the snozs I had during the day I didn't expect to feel tired, but like in the afternoon, I read about three pages before my eyes kept closing. I turned out the light, and fell asleep almost instantly.

  I think I had a good sleep last night, but as usual it was in one or two hour segments (it is possible one might have been closer to three hours). It may be significant that I didn't seem to dream much last night. I do know I had some now forgotten dreams in the last hour or two of sleep, but evidently none were important enough to remember. I woke up at about 5.30am and I seemed to be wide awake. I doubted I would get back to sleep, but after a pee and turning on the heater, I did fall asleep. Maybe the "purr", or however it should be described, of the fan in the fan heater lulled me to sleep for about an hour and a half.

  I knew that after eating what I ate yesterday I couldn't expect a blood glucose reading of under 8.0mmol/l, but I thought the actual reading of 8.3mmol/l was pretty good under the circumstances. On this final day of May my end of month average was 8.35mmol/l, and that is slightly higher than my running average for the whole year of 8.24mmol/l. It is only a slight difference, and if nothing else is shows my control is fairly consistent month in, month out. The very best is not a lot lower, and the very worst is only a bit higher. I sometime feel that some of those outliers are beyond my physical control, and are caused by other reasons than just what I have been eating. Having said that, I know I can get lower readings if I fast a lot.

  Today....I fear today is going to be a lot like yesterday, but without the brief pleasure of some shopping. If I were to go out it would have to be before the rain starts in the early to mid afternoon, but even before that it would be dull and miserable. I don't think I can raise the enthusiasm to go out today. I should get back to that old Toshiba laptop, but while it was interesting when I started, it grows boring now - particularly if I remember that the laptop doesn't really have any practical use. On the other hand, I did find out that a few days ago that it's battery is still in good enough condition to power it for a whole hour. It would be a shame to waste that. Maybe I could use it as a spare/backup web page server.