Today could be as bad as yesterday. It is medium grey now, and could be all day. Once again no rain is forecast, but at the moment the road outside seems to be bone dry. The best we can hope for is 14° C, but in this cold grey light it is going to feel pretty cold. Tomorrow may start misty (and maybe that prediction could be right this time) and there could be some sunny spells in the afternoon, but even so, a single hour at 14° C is not going to make it feel any less cold.

  As mentioned in the paragraph about yesterday's weather, at the top of the page, yesterday was most horrid. I think all the blame for it being horrid lies with the horrible weather. I felt pretty awful yesterday. Maybe some was some sort of long distance empathy with Angela who I believe was having a horrid day too.

   I didn't think I could raise any enthusiasm to do anything at all yesterday, but I did at least have a shower. My hair really needed washing too, but it still felt good to have washed the rest of me. Having washed I felt OK to go out and get some shopping from Tesco.  By saying I felt OK I really meant that I didn't feel dirty, grubby and smelly. In a more physical sense I did not feel good at all.

  My walk to, and from Tesco didn't really feature anything like angina, no chest pains, but lots of other bits ached, and I felt like I didn't have any energy. To make matters worse I walked out my front door into the fine drizzle that was not supposed to happen. I can't say it got me wet, but it certainly dampened my enthusiasm, and was just another part of the whole that made the day rather depressing.

  In theory I was after buying very safe food to try and shift a recent upward swing in my weight, and more bothersome, high blood glucose readings. On the whole I did stick to fairly safe stuff, but the two packs of bread rolls were a bit stupid although still a bit desirable. The reason for two packs is that I couldn't be bothered to put the first back on the shelf after finding what I really wanted.

  Somehow I had managed to go out to Tesco earlier than usual, and it was only about 11.30am when I got home. That should have been too early for lunch, and yet as soon as I had finished putting my shopping away I some lunch. It was two "chicken tikka" slices that I put in the microwave for 90 seconds to heat up, but not get too hot to comfortable eat. I guess they were actually quite nice, but I dread to think how bad they might have been for me at a time when I would have liked to have been extra careful.

  After lunch I just lazed on my bed reading, and although I don't seem to remember it specifically, I probably had a snooze of unknown length. I definitely remember laying there with my eyes closed, but it is the sleeping bit I am unsure about. Eventually I had to find the energy and enthusiasm to wash a single hand towel I had left soaking after my shower. I managed about 6 rinses before I took a break, and then did two more rinses before wring it out as hard as I could. I ten hung it on the small clothes horse with the desk fan blowing at it.

  To my great surprise it was not quite 2.30pm when the man from Amazon arrived with my new biker style (almost) leather jacket. This time the sizing almost worked. I had hoped it might be a little bigger, but it was a pretty good fit. Easy to zip up (after breathing in !), and the arms almost had another breathing room. The only negative thing is that I felt it would have been nicer if it had been a bit longer. In some circumstances it can ride up to the waistline of my trousers and allow a nasty cold draught  on my lower back.

  For a little while I was sort of happy, but that cold grey light outside the windows soon sucked away any happy thoughts. I ended up having a mid afternoon snack of a couple of naughty cheese and onion rolls. They were the entire idea when I bought them. They might just possibly have not been as bad for me as it seems. While eating that snack I checked the electronic programme guide to see if there was anything at all on TV yesterday. There was absolutely nothing !

  I went back to reading, and by about 5.30pm I was feeling hungry again - which almost certainly was all in the mind rather than physical hunger. I was going to have a can or probably two cans of soup, when at the last minute I decided to have two packs of "stir fry flavour" instant noodles. That is one of my favourite flavours, but for dinner it didn't seem very exciting at all for some reason. So much so that I had two small (25gm) packets of crisps for dessert.

  I was not sure that all my negative feelings were just depression based, or if it was the weather, or if I was actually ill in some way. There were hints it might have been the latter. One such hint was that there were a few times I seemed to be sweating a lot. I didn't do my usual thing of checking my temperature several times in the day, but if I had I wonder if I might have caught myself with a fever.

  Today I seem to feel a lot better, as if I had just got over some sort of illness, and it is possible that a couple of periods of fever yesterday might have been burning out the last of the infection. My lack of energy, and some muscular aches and pains hinted at infection. Of course that sweating may have been a result of very high blood glucose, but the results this morning suggest it was probably not that high. There is also the thing that my blood glucose rises when I am ill, and today it might seem that it has just started to fall (but only an even better reading tomorrow might confirm it).

  Last night I most definitely felt rough. It seemed to be more than just acid indigestion. I felt really rotten in many ways. Most were lots of semi minor things, an assemble of off aches and pains, all adding up to piling on the negatives on top of the acid indigestion, and just pure depression and/or boredom. At 6pm I said that just 3 hours to go until the end of the day. I hoped I might get to sleep by then, but it turned out to be closer to midnight.

  Like so many times before, once I got to sleep I seemed to sleep very well. I wasn't really keeping track of it, but my impression of it is that I got up to pee less frequently last night, and those pees I did have were smaller than usual (whatever usual is). One negative affect of not passing as much pee as usual, and only doing a small poo when I got up, is that I seem to have put on a few hundred grams of weight this morning. (I should have weighed myself after an extra pee before I ate my breakfast. Maybe the weight gain may have only been 100gm).

  My blood glucose this morning could be very good or very bad depending on which meter to believe. The Contour meter read 8.8mmol/l. That is a bit higher than desirable, but perfectly OK. The GlucoRX meter read a very good 8.1mmol/l. The Exactive meter read a terrible 9.0mmol/l. although that is really only on the front step of terrible. The average of all three meters this morning is slightly less than yesterday's average, and yesterday was slightly better than the day before. Maybe I am rather more slowly than liked, coming through a negative period, and with care (and luck !) I can get back to far better readings soon.

  There is not a lot I can say about my blood pressure. This mornings reading is 108/48, and that is about as average as it can be. It took a bit of effort, but I got the %SpO₂ reading (the amount of oxygen in the blood) up to 99. That is pretty good, but before I stopped smoking it was easy to get it up tom 100 !

   Just for a change I do know some of what I am doing today. After all those sweaty periods yesterday I need to wash my hair today. I may as well have a wet shave as well as a shower while I am at it. I might put in some laundry to soak today, but maybe that might not be sensible because depending on what else happens, I may not get around to finishing it today. Being a Sunday I would normally be expecting to see Jodie. She has not said she won't come, but did say she will only be coming back from a weekend in Brighton this morning (or probably later), and my guess is she will be too "beered out" to want more beer. I might just possibly take my new leather jacket out for a short walk today. The weather is not in favour of it, and I suppose I had better be back before 3pm in the unlikely event I do go out, but you never know.....