09:17 BST

  Sunny spells were forecast for yesterday morning, but yesterday continued the trend of grey murky days. I can't recall a single ray of sunshine making it through the clouds. The temperature only rose from 11° C in the morning to 15° C, in the afternoon. The best thing I can think of was that it stayed dry.
  This morning has started off grey, as per the forecast, but the sky seems too grey to let any of the sunny spells through for the immediate future. Maybe we will get a sunny spells or two, but to me it looks like another in this depressing sequence of cool grey days. It should stay dry again, despite all that think cloud, and the afternoon may see a maximum of 14° C.

  Yesterday started with some feint optimism, but that was soon dashed, and yesterday was very depressing - and that has left it's mark on me. I ended up eating more than I should have, but that happened later in the day. My day started with some fair health results, and then went down hill.

  My prime objectives, and in fact my only real objectives for the day were to go to the pharmacy and to do some shopping in Aldi - which handily is just around the corner from the pharmacy. As I mentioned yesterday, before I could do much I had to get the towel I had left soaking in detergent overnight, wrung out so I could empty the big bucket I was soaking it in, and leave the bathtub empty so I could have a shower. Wringing out freezing cold soapy water is not nice, but I did it, and then went on to have my shower.

  By the time I had showered, dried myself off, had a short rest, and then got dressed, it was approaching midday. That was later than intended, but made little difference in reality. I then set out to the pharmacy. When I got there I found my prescription was all bagged up and ready for me to take away. The assistant suggested I check it was all there before I left. I had a quick look, and it all seemed to be there, but it was not until I had a better rummage in the bag, when outside the shop, that my worst fears came true. There was not GTN spray, and it seems the Cardiologists ban on my use of GTN spray had come through the system super quickly.

  No GTN spray made me feel very depressed. That stuff seems like a life saver to me, and not the possible killer that the Cardiologist said it could be. He claims it could lower my blood pressure so low that I pass out, and possibly die. I will do some research on this idea later if the sun does come out. I will go out with my blood pressure meter on, and walk until I start to feel Angina coming on (about a quarter of a mile). I'll then check my blood pressure. I will be surprised if it is not far too high, and a drop would be welcome to avoid something serious like a stroke !

  Not getting that spray, and with my current one getting near the end, was a blow to all my future plans, and not least making it possible to get to Kings College Hospital when the time comes to have my faulty heart valve fixed. The walk to Catford station will be a real bugger, and the walk from Denmark Hill station to the hospital might finish me off. In the more immediate future I think it subtly changed what foods I bought in Aldi.

  Considering I am supposed to be losing weight, aided, or maybe hindered by Mounjaro injections, I should have been very careful about what I bought in Aldi. I usually do take some care, but yesterday I just chucked anything that looked good in my shopping trolley. Only one thing, some walnut cake, was terrible, but other stuff was not ideal. I had been contemplating the ideal of making meals from scratch using meat and vegetables, but I really only bought ready meals.

  I had walked to the pharmacy without the aid of GTN spray. As experience predicted, it was about as far as I could walk without having to stop to recover. I think I was in the shop for no more than 5 minutes, and that was enough to recover, and the short walk to Aldi was no problem. Having loaded myself up with shopping inn Aldi, I wondered how it would be as I walked home.

  I was not as bad as feared, but I was very glad to get home and put my shopping down. Obviously I was walking slower while carrying all that shopping - 9kg in my rucksack alone ! The slower walk meant I didn't suffer from strong angina pains, but I did have all the symptoms starting. If I had had to walk as little as an extra tenth of a mile I may have had to stop and wait for the pains to die down - hopefully with no other problems (like dying of a heart attack).

  Once I had put away my shopping I had some lunch. The principle part of my lunch was two packs of Sushi - one fish, and the other meat sushi. It always feel like it should be quite healthy, but it has quite a few calories, a fair bit of sugar, and usually a high salt content. The salt is made worse by using the soy sauce that comes in a very small fish shaped plastic bottle.

  I think I had something else after the sushi, and it may have been some baked potato crisps/puffs, but I can't remember exactly what it was. I know that after I had finished eating I laid down on my bed, and had a snooze. I don't think the snooze was very long, but I also laid there not sleeping, and I even read a few pages from my current book. Eventually I got up, and forced myself to get back to the towel I was supposed to be washing. It needed about 10 rinses, but then I was able to hang it on the big clothes horse. With the aid of a desk fan it was dry this morning.

  Before long it was time for the 6 O'clock news, and dinner time. My main course for dinner started good-ish, but I then spoiled things in more than one way. It was two corned beef hash "crispbakes". By them selves they weren't too bad, but I had bough a small jar of BBQ relish in Aldi, and I had to try it. There were principally two things wrong with it. The first was that it was loaded with sugar - which I knew when I bought it. That wouldn't have been so bad if it had any decent flavour. It didn't ! It was like smearing on brown, tasteless jam.

  After the main course I had a dessert. A very delicious dessert. It was a new ice cream I discovered in Aldi - lemon and pistachio. It was really good, and past experience says my diabetes copes with most ice creams rather better than I would dare imagine. I didn't even dare check the calorie content. In fact I didn't look at the nutritional information at all - I just enjoyed some of it. Somehow I managed to restrain myself to eating a modestly small portion.

  I watched a lot of TV before I went to bed. It has become a bad habit, but last night I welcomed the distraction. It was 11pm when I went to bed. I laid down, turned out the light, and tried to sleep. I found I could not get to sleep. Once again I didn't feel comfortable. Maybe that is the case most nights, but most nights I seem to be sleepy enough that I am asleep before I feel uncomfortable.

  Last night I was still seething about not getting my hoped for GTN spray. Instead of sleeping I was awake plotting... I was wondering if I could order some online. I had read somewhere that it doesn't need a prescription, but a pharmacist has to do a brief "consultation". I am pretty sure there is an online pharmacy that I have bought test strips for my blood glucose meters from, and I think they list the spray. If I can get through the online consultation (probably just ticking a few boxes) I may be able to buy some from there.

  I also spent some time figuring out what walking I would be able to manage without using the spray. Before I started using the spray I could don short walks, like the three quarters of a mile to the pub on a Wednesday, but I did have to keep stopping to recover for a minute or two (usually by stopping to take a photo of something), but such a walk is not pleasurable, and for "exercise" it really needs to have some element of pleasure - or a pleasurable end point like arriving at the pub.

  It seemed like it must have been 1am when I decided I would get up, and take some paracetamol to try and get any discomfort/aches/pains out of the equation. I was convinced I hadn't slept a wink at that point, and it was a great shock to see it was almost 4am. I guess I must have got some sleep. I took the Paracetamol, and looked at some stuff on my PC to give it time to work. Very soon I was almost falling asleep at my keyboard, and I went to bed where I fell asleep very quickly.

  This morning was another morning where I got up very late again. I think it was almost 8.30am when I got up. The first thing was to check my health readings. My weight was appallingly high, although it was only a rise of 500gm (on top of a couple of other small increases). On that basis, today is the sort of day when I should go out for a 3 or 4 mile walk. If the weather forecast is right is right there should be sunny spells this afternoon, and in fact they should have already started. It does look a bit brighter, and maybe the cloud is a bit thinner, but there is not even a hint of any blue to be seen between the clouds.

  It goes against how I think should work, but this morning I have seen the strange thing where my weight is up, but my blood glucose is very nice and low. The Contour meter read 6.2mmol/l, and that is very good. The GlucoRX meter read 6.5mmol/l - also good. The GlucoFix meter read a fantastic 5.8mmol/l. Readings starting with "5" are colour coded yellow on my spreadsheet, and so today I got my second yellow this month, and a total of just three this year. It is the one affect of Mounjaro that gets full marks, but that is what it was originally invented for.

  Apart from a possible walk this afternoon - if the sunny spells materialise - there is not a lot happening today. I think I will probably try and wash my hair today. I topped my ears up with oil last night, and if my dizzy spells were the result of hard wax in the ear, as seems to be the proven case, I should be fine bending over the bath to wash my hair. I was bending over the bath to wash the towel yesterday, although not so far over, and I didn't get a single twinge. Other than that, I think I predict a boring sort of day.