08:51 BST

   Yesterday was a dull, wet and thoroughly miserable sort of day. The afternoon temperature only barely reached 17° C
  This morning the sky is almost clear blue, and there is full strength sunshine. If the forecast is correct it will soon decline to just sunny spells, but they should last for most of the day, but not all of it. The afternoon temperature may only reach 14° C, and gale force winds will make it feel even colder when outside. The wind should die down over night. Tomorrow may start at just 10° C. The morning may feature some sunshine or sunny spells, but tomorrow afternoon could be dull, although it will be a fraction warmer/less cold with 15° C expected.

  I think yesterday's weather was responsible for not only make it grey, wet, and miserable outside, but the sight of it, through the windows, meant it was a miserable day inside. I ended up doing very little yesterday, but I did do a couple of useful things.

  Top of my list of priorities for yesterday, and in the end the only thing on that list, was to finish washing the hand towel that had been soaking for almost 24 hours (not that it needed to be - it just was), and the big builders bucket it was in was stopping me using the bath to wash my hair and have a shower. No shower = not going out, although I did think that for just shopping some clean clothes and a squirt of deodorant would have seen me OK.

  Although it theoretically had no bearing on what I did indoors, in the warm and dry, I blame the horrible weather outside still had a big effect on me, and dampened my enthusiasm to do anything at all. I didn't really keep track of the time, but I think it was probably around midday when I went back to that towel and finished washing it so I could hang it up to dry. As stupid as it sounds, it felt like I had done enough for the day at that point.

  With my mind turned inwards (outside was too terrible to contemplate) I felt an urge to have some lunch once I had hung the towel up to dry. I had already planned for my lunch when I bought some ham the last time I was shopping in Tesco. What I had planned so long in advance was two slices of toast with ham, mustard and cheese on them - suitably melted in the grill. I have to say it was nice, but not the ambrosia I imagined.

  If it wasn't for two important things I could have spent the rest of the afternoon reading, resting and if it happened, snoozing as well. The two important things were going online to buy another 6GB of data for my my spare phone, and to pay off one of my credit cards.  During the afternoon I would occasionally peep out of a window. All I could see was dark skies, and non stop rain, maybe only light rain for most of the time, but it looked disgustingly horrible.

  I could see people walking down the road with umbrellas, or rain coats, and wondered how they could bare to do it, but then I remembered that when I was at work, for instance, I had no real troubles going out in even heavier rain, sleet or even snow. It made me think that if I really had somewhere to go or do, I too could have been out there braving the weather, but there was no way I was going to do it for fun !

  Although at any one time it felt like the clock was barely moving, I actually found that dinner time was approaching faster than I would have thought. I thought one of the facets of Mounjaro, the alleged wonder slimming drug, was supposed to do various things to make you feel less hungry. Maybe it does in a physical sense, but nobody told my brain that. My brain was still looking forward to the pleasure of eating.

  I am fast realising I have been relinquishing control of my diet to Mounjaro, and it is not working as well as my brain trying to actively control my eating. The drug does help from time to time, but it seems, for me, the most useful thing it does is to keep my blood glucose nice and low. It appears to do it directly rather than a secondary effect of reducing fat around the belly, and that fat is the principal cause of type 2 diabetes.

  Now and then I, not the drug, takes control of my appetite, and that half happened yesterday. I thought I did almost as good as when, before going on the drug, I managed some good weight loss by using common sense and something or another.  I thought having two fish cakes for dinner should have been quite effective, although I deliberately had some ice cream as well.

  The ice cream was a deliberate choice to raise my blood glucose a bit for some of the night, and cause me to pee a lot of excess water in my system, and most notable from my left leg (and to a lesser extent, my right leg) which tends to swell from accumulated water (or blood). It is hard to imagine a figure for the amount of water my legs may retain, but a wild guess suggests up to a litre, or one kilogram - a far bigger figure than my weight gains and losses (ideally losses) during the day.

  It is possible that that water retention in my legs is a blood circulation problem, and my faulty heart valve may have a significant effect on it. It is only 11 days to go before I see the Lewisham Hospital Cardiology department, and I hope they can arrange some treatment that will fix that heart valve - assuming it doesn't kill me !

  Apart from the ice cream I had as a dessert, and a small handful of salted peanuts when I had an urge to have a nibble (probably during a boring bit of TV) I ate nothing more. It is a wonder I did not allow myself to want to nibble any more while I spent the evening watching TV. It was better than nothing, but even Star Trek can't always distract me from reality all the time. As usual, the last two things I watched were QI and Have I Got News For You. Once again I can't remember in which order those last two programmes were shown. For some reason the Dave Channel sometimes swaps them around.

  I don't recall any trouble getting to sleep once I had gone to bed. That was around 11pm, and so late that I didn't even bother picking up my book. Once asleep I seemed to sleep well - at least I think I did, but I have the vaguest of ideas that I might have been awake some of the time. On the other hand the idea is so vague that I was probably dreaming I was awake. What I do know was that as expected, and hoped for, I got up a few times in the night for what seemed like quite big pees.

  Maybe some of those time when I couldn't tell if I was dreaming or awake, I was actually awake. The clue is that this morning I seemed to sleep later than usual. I know I woke at around 5am, and realised it was still dark outside. It all feel a bit dreamy now, but I feel sure I thought about it for a minute, and then turned over. The next thing I knew was that it was light outside. The clear sky this morning would have made the light seem brighter.

  This morning I managed to have a big pee before I weighed myself. Once again I could not poo. Yesterday I felt very constipated, and even after I did poo it felt like there was a bit of undigested peanut irritating my backside, and I could not seem to expel it. Thankfully it has gone now, and maybe thankfully I don't actually feel constipated even if nothing is moving, so far this morning.

  After excreteing all I could I weighed myself - while naked (I did not want to weight any clothes I might have been wearing). Unfortunately I seem to have put on 200gm. That is not supposed to have happened. Apart from about a week towards the end of last month, when I was a bit lighter, my current weight is roughly the same as the majority of last month. I am actually just 200gm heavier than my average weight for September, and that is 200gm heavier than my average for August. At least it is only small amounts, but it is a whole 2kg lighter than the first month of the year.

  Better news is that my blood glucose is nice and low again this morning. The Contour meter read just 7.4mmol/l. That is just 0.1 under my self set target, and I may have to reduce the target to 6.5mmol/l if my readings remain low. The GlucoRX meter read a very nice 6.6mmol/l - only just over my potentially new target. The new GlucoFix meter read 7.3mmol/l - also below my current target. The average of all three meters today is 7.1mmol/l compared to yesterday's 7.67mmol/l (admittedly the first two days of this month had even lower averages).

  Once I have had my usual lie down and rest, I think I will wash my hair, and have a much needed shower. I will then go out, but probably only to the shops. I am getting feelings that my not doing a poo this morning may be coming to an end. That will be good if it means just a single visit to the toilet. One problem yesterday was that I needed several visits to the toilet once things moved, and I felt uncomfortable most of the time. I do not want to go on a long walk if I am going to be uncomfortable, but a quick visit to the shops may be OK. I don't think I have other plans for the rest of the day - I'll just make it up as I go along.